I can understand that reading the pages of this website can perhaps feel quite heavy, but I want to say that in general when I am writing (or otherwise engaged) I have not been doing so from such a place. Not being on the other side of the planet I do not know whether the incredibly powerful emanation of love that is coming from Arrowen is discernible to you, our loved ones afar.
If I were to have thought about what kind of state I would be in faced with this situation after losing Braedwyn 11 months ago yesterday, I am sure my prediction would have been messy and low. However, I am anything but. Well, maybe haven't cleaned up our flat in the last few days, but within I think we are both quite clean (to drag that metaphor beyond its usefulness).
As we left the hospital this afternoon I commented to Nicole about feeling in a state of grace (to borrow a term from the Catholics). By no means am I referring to anything related to that institution, just rather the profound stillness of my soul, the near constant torrent of energy pouring out my hands, and my heart exploding with love.
There is something about her presence that is incredibly beautiful and profound. In Sanskrit there is the term Shaktipat that I feel best defines what I am referring to. Once back at home all I need do is look at this photo of her to feel it welling up within. Not that it is only apparent in this way, but I find it works instantaneously.
Last night we were both meditating after returning home. Perhaps meditating is not the correct term as it was more heart based (maybe Carditating?) and the experience was incredibly visual and full of her spirit beaming across town from her hospital room.
I invite you all to see if you can connect with her in a similar fashion. I can guarantee if you are successful you will be profoundly glad you did. Although I must warn you that you may suffer a lack of desire to excel in those qualities that are most rewarded here on Earth.